i need to stay awake bc i want to talk to drew but idk when he’s going to call again
sigh sigh sigh
i want to stop hurting myself
and i want honesty
but sometimes the honesty makes me want to hurt myself
so im stuck between lies to protect me
and the truth to hurt me
sad sap so lets listen to depressing music to top it off. yup
this is making me cry, stop .
how am i supposed to stop when i feel like this?
i can’t deal knowing i upset you
this isn’t even my fault
i tell my mom what i eat today and she gives me a dirty look and tells me to go eat more
w h y
i know i complain too much but my arm hurts so fucking bad i want to cry
My arm is still bleeding and it burns so fucking bad.
Im fucking stupid
progress and i’m happy
no more of this hurting myself bullshit, starting right now i’m done. i’m done for him and myself, its been going on too long.