i need to stay awake bc i want to talk to drew but idk when he’s going to call again 

sigh sigh sigh

i want to stop hurting myself

and i want honesty 

but sometimes the honesty makes me want to hurt myself

so im stuck between lies to protect me

and the truth to hurt me 

thats life

silver-sweet-sound-lovers:

sad sap so lets listen to depressing music to top it off. yup

this is making me cry, stop .

stop 

stop 

stop

how am i supposed to stop when i feel like this? 

i can’t deal knowing i upset you

this isn’t even my fault

fucking cheer

fucking everything

i tell my mom what i eat today and she gives me a dirty look and tells me to go eat more

w h y 

i know i complain too much but my arm hurts so fucking bad i want to cry

My arm is still bleeding and it burns so fucking bad.
Im fucking stupid

progress and i’m happy

no more of this hurting myself bullshit, starting right now i’m done. i’m done for him and myself, its been going on too long.

Sorry.